When I look at the title of this blog – I am disappointed – mostly in myself. Who would think that losing one little pound a week would be so difficult and challenging? So much so that I haven’t been able to even accomplish such a simple goal.
This isn’t going to be a post in which I beat myself to a pulp – but I am frustrated and I think, given the fact that I’m posting something – pulling myself out of denial. The reality is that over the weeks and months of silence I’ve been gaining weight back – weight that I really don’t want.
I spent most of last night reading – when I really should have been sleeping. Oh, I’d give a half hearted attempt to sleep, but the book – not even a really great one – kept pulling me awake. (How I wish my Bible had the same pull on me!) However, at 5:30 this morning – just before I fell asleep – I woke up! Woke up to the childishness in me. Woke up to the reality that I need to GROW UP ALREADY! Woke up to the fact that something needs to start changing – and it needs to be my bedroom.
As I worked through a bit of this epiphany, I realized that my room is more like a student’s dorm room, littered with books, craft projects, more books and stuff that doesn’t really belong in a room meant for rest, sleep and unwinding. My room reflects the current chaos as I work through changes in career, sleep times and personal developement. So do my eating habits and exercise routines.
I had a quick look through Google images and this one called my name. There are so many – some telling you not to grow up, some trying to help you define your career. The challenge for me is to work through the current chaos of change, and come through it ready to embrace the changes that are coming in the future.
I’m not quite ready to share numbers – but I will commit to sharing my exercise activities and perhaps what I’m eating (and not eating!) Right now I’m enjoying a cup of Nepali Black tea with milk and honey!
Thanks to all of you who share my journey. I am inspired by your successes and your commitment to yourselves to continue mine.